Category: Dream Journal

Undeniably the Night Sky, a Dream

A dream on the night of 08/12/2017

By James Wadman


In the city, it is believable that the sky we see is merely a curtain of haze permeated by only our closest celestial neighbors. In August, we see Jupiter rise first and Saturn closest to the moon. As the nights get darker, we will see the big dipper pointing toward the north star. Dominant is the amber glow cast by streetlights and industries that never sleep. It is as if the night sky we see in the city is more so a reflection of ourselves and the decision we made to turn inward, rather than gazing through our window to the universe above.

In my dream, I followed a map to where the trees cleared and the sky revealed the moon, the animated stars, and the dust of our galaxy. It was apparent that I was not in the city

“Stand here,” I was told, seeing only a man’s finger pointing to a spot on the map.

I took one more step forward. The sky darkened into a nearly colorless shade of blue. The stars became brighter, perhaps even closer. It was then that I remembered what the man had told me about this place on the map:

“Here you will see what is undeniably the night sky.”

He was right: I could see into the universe as if I was witnessing the birth of stars with the naked eye. I could see our galaxy breathe, the dust coalescing into pink and golden stars. I saw the moon, the planets, even the nebulas, as if they were just out of my fingers’ reach.

I sat there for a moment before I noticed clouds began to form on the distant horizon. It began to snow and the sky was colored by the familiar amber glow of city lights.

There is no deeper meaning here, except to say that the universe is out there.

Something more amazing, something worth fighting for, something worth believing in, is always out there one step beyond your perception.

It is up to you to take the steps necessary to reveal the value in living by following the pursuit of wonder.

 

-Jw

 

Image taken on a late night in Yosemite. See more pictures of Yomsemite on my instagram. 

To Have Lived at All

From a dream 12/04/2016:

It was any ordinary day. I go to work, I try to admire the world and others, I do my best. I was working on writing an exam for my job in the chemistry program at the university when my vision began to fade. At first I thought nothing of this. Growing up with syncope, lapses of consciousness were not unfamiliar occurrences to me. However, this time it was sustained and came with a harsher, prolonged separation from reality. I thought I might be in trouble, so I ran to find someone.

I pleaded to the first person I found to call an ambulance in shaky, inarticulate words as I fell to the ground. My eyes were closing, but I told myself I only needed to breathe. I might fall asleep on the ground of a university hallway, but I would wake up at the destination of the ambulance that was en route to save me. And sure enough, I did.

I woke up in a hospital bed beside overjoyed family members, none of whom I recognized. A man took my hand and I was surprised at how his hand engulfed mine, as if he were a giant with a friendly face. When he moved closer I could see in the reflection of the window that I was not myself — or at least not who I was before the fall. I was a child and this was my father. My life, the life of James Wadman, the neurobiologist, chemistry specialist, writer, and musician was the dream of a young boy in the midst of his chemotherapy treatment.

I was still looking in my reflection in the window when the world faded again. This time, I woke up in bed at home.

When the clock runs out of time, I learned that it is a blessing to have lived at all.

Boundless Wonder

By James Wadman

Society has misguided us into believing that boundless wonder has an expiration date in our lives. The difference between a child and a parent is experience, not the capacity for desire, curiosity, or even intelligent thought. I can’t be the only person to suggest that some of the most brilliant ideas are those voiced by children.

Anatomically, there are differences between the adult and child brains. Throughout late childhood and adolescence, the brain undergoes what is called “synaptic pruning,” a molecular phenomenon where unused circuits in the brain grow weaker and the useful circuitry grows stronger. For many of us that means that logical thought and responsibility increases as a function of growing up, while playful thought and uninhibited pleasure seeking is tamed by rationality. In modern society, synaptic pruning is an important product of our evolution. However, it is also an inherent limitation that forces us to cling to our biological history.

And for this I will suggest that maintaining the characteristics of a child’s brain can prove to be effective for a genuinely happy life, even if it would seem that this is fundamentally impossible given the previously discussed anatomical differences. Embrace your dreams, the chance to see new things in the world, and express yourself freely. Growing up, we learn to be responsible in a world that becomes increasingly competitive. Don’t let your curiosity fall victim to the false notion of growing up.

 

 

A Dream of Extinction

By James Wadman, Written at 6am

There were two objects orbiting in a curved pattern. At the pinnacle of this sinusoidal motion they would become brightly colored, like shooting stars, and then slope down toward the horizon. This repeated for several revolutions around the panoramic view. Then a thin white speck fell at an angled trajectory down to earth from one of the brighter orbiting objects. I have never seen anything reach so high into the sky. I could feel it the second I saw the flames: A warm pulse and a shockwave. Our extinction.

Read my lucid dream guide here!

This dream reflects a feeling I have not yet identified. The theme of extinction is one that can have good or bad implications depending on the nature of the dream. A cataclysmic event can represent a fear of extinction of oneself (the fear of death that underlies most of our existential motives), or it can represent the termination of a chapter in one’s life. I believe that the best indication for the nature of a dream is the initial feeling you have upon waking up. I woke up immediately upon the seeing and feeling the explosion that came from the mysterious lights orbiting the earth. For some reason, I wanted to jump back into the dream. I wanted to see what came after the explosion (I should mention that the explosion itself was too far away to pose any threat of danger). Therefore, I concluded that the explosion represented something good, something I know I have to look forward to. I’ll keep my eyes open for the extinction.

If you have an idea about what this dream could represent or you have your own dream stories, I would love to hear!

Image from my Instagram page, where I first featured the story of this dream.

Dreamcatcher

It’s been a great week over here in the Useful Soul Media studio.  First we got to celebrate some of the best in wordpress poetry through my first submission feature, and now I am releasing the full version of the very first song I ever wrote and produced with the help of a good friend. The song is called Dreamcatcher and the preview is available to watch now on youtube with an official release on iTunes likely to come on the first of July.

Music is necessary in my life as a form of inspiration and release.  Creativity is a vital component to any scientific mind, and I don’t know what I would do without the people in my life who make it all possible.  Please go check out Dreamcatcher and let me know what you think in the comments below!

Also, a special thanks goes out to the Cosmic Time Traveler, the head of Sentient Sentry Blog for editing the image used for the youtube video, originally from Unsplash. I love seeing what creative minds can accomplish when we all work together (hey, not unlike your incredible contribution to this months feature).

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.  I will be updating the submissions page early next week to introduce the topic for the July feature, so look out for that.

-Jw

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